bad day

i woke up today crying
i could not withstand the pain am feeling
tears have startewd falling
when i got on my feet, realizing i was just dreaming

as  i touched my face
my heart jump , when i feel the tear on m finger
i thought it was just a dream that hunts and chase
but the feeling is stillk at ease,
   feeling like a beast hunts me in the dim forest

siting on the edge of the bed, i can feel the damage
thinking of the dream, makes my very heart scream
i can't think of a single word to expressed this thing
i still can't reduced the feeling and cant explain it on my  all being
the emotional pain am feeling puts me back to sleep though am crying

bein in sleep again
i can still feel mself back in vain..

untittled 101

January 26

i tried to love to be happy

i love one to let myself never be lonely

but when  i felt pain and agony

loving only one will cause so much misery

i broke my heart when he left me

the smile he gave to the eyes on my yesterday

could never cure the heart that was been hurt so badly

that's why i decided to let myself play no matter what it will cost me

yesterday, loving someone is never easy

coz i thought loving someone is heavenly

now hat truth strikes my very way

loving someone is not a serious thing really

coz, the heart that was been hurt is the most dangerous thing baby

i tried to love to be happy on my yesterday

now loving one is a bad start of my day

coz, having more than one is the goal of my everyday

and not to be caught is the greatest adventure and achievement i can get today/...

tears have left my eyes

sittin' here all alone makes me blue

realizin' what i have just lossed makes me grow

but doin' this and that is the only way to be done

coz if ain't bcoz life sucks i wont crack my shell and met you

far from you means the sun won't shine anymore

the tear that i have had shed is like the rain on my own

the laughter we have shared hunts me like a bear hunting in the middle of the moon

bein' away from you makes me like a bear seein nothing but you

the beautiful mem'res make me cry

every hugs and kisses i know i have missed

the warmth and sweetness i just cant missed

to sum1 .....sum1 i shouldn't have kissed...

gudbye aint enaf

the pain cause by love ain't easy to delete

this pain is not something i can give claim

am in hurt and in great pain

coz the love i have offered you can never deviate the pain

in the warmth of each hugs

    i ca feel the luv

in the sweetnes of each kiss

  i can tastes the happiness

but each happiness felt cums great sacrifices

in every love bein' felt cums a huge sadness

and in every happy mem'ry cums a great misery...